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06 June 2011 @ 11:01 pm
Something Borrowed 3/3  
Title: Something Borrowed 3/3
Pairing/characters: Finn/Kurt
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Finn is getting married and Kurt is the best man. But Kurt wants to kiss the bride groom.
A/N: There’s nothing quite like a June wedding, so we thought we’d invite you to a double bash. Check out absinthe90’s fic here

Chapter 1
Chapter 2

Something Borrowed
Chapter 3

Kurt awoke naked and shivering, the sheets tangled up round his ankles and the space next to him empty and cold. "Finn?" he called out. The apartment sounded empty around him.

He remembered very little after Finn's tears. At some point they had moved to the bed, just for sleep, and Kurt had cradled him in his arms and wished that the circumstances were different; that instead of a creature in pain in his grasp, it was Finn. The laughing Finn, the moron, the guy so full of eternal optimism that he ran into walls and then got up and did it over again.

Swinging his legs from the bed, Kurt pulled on Finn’s dressing gown, the material swamping him, and went in search. "Finn?" he called again.

"In here," Finn said loudly. Kurt padded across the floor, his mouth dry in apprehension. Finn sat at the desk, looking adorable. All tousled, mussed hair and tired eyes. "I couldn't sleep," he explained.

"What are you doing?" Kurt looked at Finn’s hands, which held the material samples from the other day.

"I was wondering if I could tell the difference now. You know, because of--"

"Last night? Seriously?"

"This one is Blue Chime, right?" he asked, smiling wryly at Kurt’s nod. "That's not all. I now have this uncontrollable urge to see Mamma Mia." That tore a harsh bark of a laugh from Kurt, and he went and stood beside him, leaning his weight against the desk.

"Have you—Have you heard from Rachel?” Kurt asked in a guarded tone.

"I texted her. She’s still mad at me. She’s not replying."

"Finn." Kurt ran his hands over his face, kneading the skin. It was all so much of a mess. "It's okay you know. We can--we can leave last night behind us. Forget it ever happened.”

"Is that what you want?" he asked in a small voice.

Well, they'd come this far. "It's the last thing I want, Finn," Kurt admitted. He reached out to cup Finn’s cheek automatically and was surprised when he leaned into his palm, closing his eyes. "It's the very last thing I want,” Kurt admitted hoarsely.

"I thought it was maybe a phase? The way I felt? The thoughts I was having about you. Fuck, I thought it was just curiosity, the kind you have but just never mention to your friends, you know, like wanting to learn how to line dance?"

"I--think I I know what you're saying. This is worrying in itself."

"But it wouldn't go away. It just kept getting worse." Kurt’s thumb continued to trace his cheekbone as he spoke and his heart quickened at the thought Finn had wanted him back all this time.

"Do you want me to tell Rachel?" Kurt asked, softly.

"What?" His eyes snapped open and he pushed Kurt’s hand away. "No! We aren't telling her anything!"

"But you just said--"

"I know what I said and I never said anything about Rachel! I'm marrying her, Kurt!" He jumped up, knocking the chair over accidentally in his frustration. "I won't do that to her for some--some experiment."

"Is that what I am?" Kurt snapped, jabbing him hard in the shoulder. "Is that it?"

Finn slapped the hand away but Kurt kept coming. "Kurt," he said in a cautious voice, trying to catch his arm. "Don't."

"What am I? The straight boy vacation?" Kurt pushed again and Finn caught him by the wrists. Finn could have easily thrown him off, but instead he drew him closer, those brown eyes filled with so much confusion and sadness that Kurt’s rage ebbed away. "Oh, Finn." Kurt leaned towards him and barely grazed his lips with his own. He grabbed the back of his head and kissed him back, hard, his teeth nipping at Kurt's bottom lip. Reluctantly, Kurt pressed against his shoulders and pushed him away. "No, Finn! Wait. When does she leave?"

"Rachel?" He pulled away, his features heavy with shame. "Day after tomorrow. We had this--fucking ridiculous fight. I was such a bastard, Kurt. I took it all out on her! It's all she has ever wanted and I just crapped all over it." He curled his fingers into his hair and gripped it tight in frustration. "What do I do?"

"You say you’re sorry. You spend some time with her and apologise for being a jerk. Hell, rent Mamma Mia if you want. After she leaves, we'll talk this over. How's that sound?"

“Okay, I guess,” said Finn. “Do I really have to sit through Pierce Brosnan’s bit, though? I mean, he’s James Bond and all--”

“Finn! Stop focusing on the unimportant stuff. Now, go. Apologise.” He stepped back to allow Finn to pass and smiled. Then realised he’d forgot the important part. “Don’t skip Chiquitita, though! It was flawless. Flawless!”

A bouquet of well chosen flowers and a serenade in the middle of the cafe (SOS, if one could believe) where Rachel worked, and they were the happy engaged couple again. All week they were disgustedly cute, twirling around the apartment and singing snippets of duets as they made anime eyes at each other. Kurt resisted the temptation to max out his credit card and throw Rachel on the first plane that came up. But every now and then he would catch Finn watching him, that half smile playing on his lips and Kurt's resentment would dissolve.

He could wait. Finn was worth waiting for.

The day finally came for Rachel to leave. Kurt practically piggy backed her to the airport, trying to ignore the twinges of guilt in his stomach as she hugged him tight and kissed his cheek, telling him to keep an eye on Finn. Trying to ignore the stabs of jealousy as Finn hugged her goodbye with teary eyes.
Tried to ignore the hope.

Kurt didn’t say a word as they stepped back into the empty apartment. He merely stepped aside and breathed the scent of apples as Finn moved past him. Finn had no words either, merely pulled Kurt to him before his bag had even hit the floor. They didn't talk that night, or the next.

Moments slipped into hours and dreamed into days, before finally becoming weeks. Kurt grabbed at it all hungrily, aware of how fragile and precious this all was. How fleeting. Like this moment now, with Kurt watching him sleep. As he memorised Finn’s face he thought back to that first time. The first time that Finn had initiated the kiss, the first time that he had pushed Kurt down onto the bed, swallowing his lips almost desperately, the first time that they'd made love and he gasped into Kurt’s mouth, as he entered him, the first time he’d whispered, almost without realising what he was saying, into Kurt’s ear that he loved Kurt and only Kurt, as he moved within him.

Those moments were Kurt’s. Rachel would never have that and Kurt felt a deep satisfaction that he lay claim to a Finn in a way that no one else could. Kurt edged closer to him, inhaling his scent. Not Rachel's conditioner anymore, but his.

Breaking his thoughts, Kurt’s cell phone sprung to life and he snapped it open before it could disturb Finn.


"Kurt? It's me."

"Rachel?" he groaned, "It's--" Kurt glanced over at the LED clock. "God! 3am!"

"I know that. I'm sorry! I just...I just had to talk to someone." Her breath was hitched and panicked.

"Rach? Are you crying? What's wrong?"

"No, yes. It's such a mess! How could the jerk do this to me?" She knew! Kurt’s blood froze and he waited for the accusations, the screams.

"Listen, it's not--"

"He flies me over here, tells me he'll make me a big star and then tries to get in my---. He made a pass at me, Kurt! It was nothing but a long con!" She sobbed angrily into the receiver.

"What? Who?"

"The casting director! I can't believe I pushed back my wedding for this!"

"I'm so sorry, Rach," he consoled, ashamed at his relief. He hated seeing his friend hurt like this. He hated his relief more.

"Don't tell Finn, the last thing I want is a told you so. I'm going to get the first plane back, surprise him, you know?"

"Sure. He'll love it." Kurt barely heard his own voice, the roiling thoughts in his head drowning it out.

"And you know what? To hell with a white wedding. I'm going to marry him in a McDonalds if I have to! Finn would probably prefer that."

"He does love their McFlurries.” Kurt blinked. “I mean. Great. That's just great."

"Why are you whispering? Am I interrupting something? You got a guy there? Is it Blaine?"

"I’m not with Blaine! Don't be stupid!"

"You do have a guy there! You do! Is he attractive? Take a picture on your cell and send me it! Go on!"

Oh, sweet mother of God.

"Rach! Seriously, it's the middle of the night. Have some mercy!"

"Fine! I'll let you go, I'll see you tomorrow, okay? Say hello to your lovah. Oh! Clean the cushions tomorrow, people have to sit on that.” She clicked off.

"Kurt? Who was that," Finn asked tiredly, lifting his head up from the pillow.

"Rachel. She’s coming home."

"What?" That woke him. "Is she okay?"

"She's fine, the movie it--it wrapped early is all." He sat up and leaned into Kurt’s side, his head against his shoulder. "This has to stop. You have to choose, Finn."

A look of panic crossed Finn‘s face. "I can't! I just--this all so fucked up! Why didn't you just leave me alone!" He softened on seeing Kurt’s face. "--I didn't mean that."

"I know, Finn." But his words still stung, maybe there was something in it. If Kurt had never slipped up that day, if he had just pushed his feelings away, they wouldn't be here now. Then again, was it worth it?

"Choose for me?" he asked in a small voice.

"I can't. If I chose wrong I couldn't forgive myself. It has to be you." He wrapped his arms tightly around Kurt’s waist, pulling him to him. His heart beating in one with Kurt’s. Kurt tipped his head to his and kissed him softly, like he was fragile. Finn pressed forward wanting more and Kurt complied. His tongue battled with Finn’s, mingling with the bitter taste of night. As he groaned into Kurt’s mouth, he pushed him back onto the mattress, breaking the kiss to meet his gaze.

"This is it, Kurt," he whispered, his eyes full of apology and it tore through Kurt like a bullet. Rachel. He had chosen Rachel.

Kurt kissed him again and it was rougher, full of accusations and regrets and his hand trailed down his naked body, nails scratching not caring if his gasps were of pain or pleasure. Kurt tugged at his cock almost viciously bringing him to hardness, his teeth scraping along his jaw as he jerked his head backward. Kurt bit his neck, licking over the wound only to repeat it again. Marking what wasn't his. As Kurt parted his legs, and hooked one around Finn’s hip, he trailed a hand down his spine reverently. If this was going to be the last time he was going to remember Kurt’s touch.

In the end it wasn't love, it was fucking. Maybe to Finn that was all it had ever been. So he’d used Kurt’s shampoo. He’d whispered words of love in his ear. He’d held him. Kurt had to laugh at his triumph over winning such small battles. They were meaningless when Finn would stand up in front of them of everyone and declare his undying commitment to Rachel. People like Rachel didn’t have clandestine, shameful affairs. People like Rachel had the fairytale ending.

People like Rachel weren’t destined to be alone.

The day of the wedding came, in a cheap venue in down town New York. Finn looked nervous, Rachel looked beautiful and they both looked like they had never loved anyone as much as this.

Are you sure? Kurt asked again and again with his eyes but he chose not to answer. Kurt pressed the rings into Finn’s hand when prompted, his nails scraping his palm. If he looks at me, if I see just the tiniest flicker of doubt I'll stop this. I'll end this charade, One look, Finn. Please.

But his gazes were all for Rachel, and she basked in his love, resplendent and happy.

"You may kiss the bride," the registrar said, and Rachel smiled at her new husband, tip toeing up to meet his lips.

It ended with a kiss.

The End

Absinthe: Glee - No Airabsinthe90 on June 6th, 2011 10:19 pm (UTC)

Bettina Dawes: Book: The Dark Tower Quotemothergoddamn on June 6th, 2011 10:21 pm (UTC)
That was my prompt to you. DON'T SPOIL ME FOR YOURS!

(no subject) - absinthe90 on June 6th, 2011 10:23 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Rebness: Atonement: La Plagerebness on June 6th, 2011 10:29 pm (UTC)
*Shaking and crying*

I laughed, I wept (in my heart), I shook, I cried. *applause tbh*
Good old fashioned lover boy!: Kurt BLACKBIRD TEAR down faceprosen8966 on June 6th, 2011 10:47 pm (UTC)
The idea re knowing the swatches after Finn's first night with another man and the references to Mamma Mia were precious.

Colin Firth. Heavy, heavy sigh...

(But I digress...)

Breaking Kurt's heart is unforgivable. (Shame, shame!)

I am clearly stupid and did not get the clue in the title altho looking back, it should have been obvious.

Will now have to watch Pride & Prejudice to make up for ending not being what I'd hoped (that is to say, your writing, as always -- SUPERB! -- unhappy Kurt, not so much...)
Bettina Dawes: Book: Georgia Nicholsonmothergoddamn on June 6th, 2011 10:58 pm (UTC)
Currently writing unhappy Blaine? That better or...no? Okay!

Thanks for commenting!

(I forgot Firth was in that! I thought you'd gone mad. But, like, a sexy type of madness)

Edited at 2011-06-06 11:01 pm (UTC)
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laa_dii_daalaa_dii_daa on June 6th, 2011 10:58 pm (UTC)
I'm not gonna lie. I'm sitting here bawling my eyes out!
Bettina Dawesmothergoddamn on June 6th, 2011 11:02 pm (UTC)

I mean!

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do you got room for one more troubled soul?: [G] ♪I Just Can't Turn Away♬aoitsukikage on June 7th, 2011 12:14 am (UTC)
Okay, so as much as I want to hate Finn for going through all that and then picking Rachel anyway, I just can't because it's just so Finn with his continual commitment issues and the fact that when he loves he kind of throws everything into it despite the inevitable consequences.

That being said, your sex scenes are so incredibly vivid and full of emotion and I felt so, so bad for Kurt in this but I still really enjoyed it (and in my head they somehow end up together anyway. That's just how my mind works...)
allatingleallatingle on June 7th, 2011 03:18 am (UTC)
Oh my heart. Hugs for poor Kurt. And for Rachel too 'cause there's a marriage that's going to run aground in a few years. A smack in the back of the head for Finn.
Bettina Dawes: Book: Raymond Chandlermothergoddamn on June 7th, 2011 09:22 pm (UTC)


Ahem, thank you for commenting!
hummingbird ☆ミ: fallen herobarryallen on June 7th, 2011 06:12 am (UTC)
This is so, so sad. But so beautifully written!
Bettina Dawes: Book: I Capture the Castlemothergoddamn on June 7th, 2011 09:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much!
(Anonymous) on June 7th, 2011 06:28 am (UTC)
I love all of your fics, but it was a special treat to read a Kurt/Finn story by you. It was lovely, despite the heartache it left, and I thank you for trying out one of my closeted (but only because no one's asked) pairings!
Bettina Dawesmothergoddamn on June 7th, 2011 05:54 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad you liked it!
Gousseva Oxana: blue glamyutaka_oka on June 7th, 2011 07:32 am (UTC)
y. Y. Y?
Do you think I am asking too much?fishnetmom on June 7th, 2011 01:40 pm (UTC)
I've read the whole thing through, I just hadn't commented back. This is ripping and nerve wracking, but it's good. I love that you girls did the parallel with one happy ending and one not-so-happy ending.

I'm assuming that by absinthe's reaction that she didn't expect this. I want to hug her now, but very clever on your part.

Excellent work.
Bettina Dawes: Celeb: Ana Matronic 2mothergoddamn on June 7th, 2011 05:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much!
clovrboyclovrboy on June 7th, 2011 01:54 pm (UTC)
What?!? No!! That's so Sad! how could he chose her! I mean no! Will Kurt get a happy ending? Will you write a sequel where he does please!
Bettina Dawes: Art: Van Goghmothergoddamn on June 7th, 2011 05:53 pm (UTC)
I soothed absinth90 to sleep with tales of Kurt and Finn remaining in contact, setting up a production company named of Next of Kinn and getting back together. That's my head fanon!
readfah_cwenreadfah_cwen on June 7th, 2011 06:22 pm (UTC)
I'm sitting her, biting my finger and hyperventilating. NO! FINN NO! I know you're eternally confused about what you want, but if you're willing to cheat on your fiancée with your stepbrother then there is serious emotion there! Finn, you took the easy way out, you bastard.

My heart is pretty much broken for poor Kurt over here. He really did let himself believe -- how Finn changed which shampoo he used, and how Finn said those things in the heat of the moment ... and then he has to be their ring bearer. Oh bb. Certainly he isn't entirely in the right, but in the end he's just been alone for so long and like it said near the end, it seems like Rachel gets everything.

I'm going to stick by my "awkward family reunion" deal, some years from now. Like, they're all at the Hudmel's house, and either Kurt or Finn say something that tips everyone else off. Oh my goodness. Imagine if it was years and years into the future, where (hopefully) Kurt's found someone else and Finn and Rachel have kids ... "Why don't you talk to Uncle Kurt that much dad?" and just haha that would be awkward.

Overall fantastic story, even if I'm upset over the ending (and I see what you did with the title now, you sneaky fox.) Wonderful job! ♥
readfah_cwenreadfah_cwen on June 7th, 2011 06:23 pm (UTC)
*here, not her. Look what you do to me!
accio_remusaccio_remus on June 7th, 2011 09:43 pm (UTC)
Oh, I love this so much even though my heart breaks for Kurt. So glad you wrote some Finn/Kurt. Variety is the spice of fandom.
daisy70daisy70 on June 8th, 2011 12:42 am (UTC)
So sad!But well-written.Finn is a coward in this,he chose the easy way out and he will probably regret it in the future.He and Rachel,as almost all of the canon couples in the show, are very unlikely that will last after high school, if they were real.
woodsgalwoodsgal on December 17th, 2012 04:31 am (UTC)
I meant to read this ages ago but only did just now meep.

As much as it broke my heart in the end, it was an amazing fic. Very emotional, very well written and yes, just very good.